It’s no secret that I’ve put on a stone or two since moving in with Paul. What can I say. We got super comfortable, liked having McDonalds right round the corner from us and Netflix were just on point with their TV series this summer.
But it wasn’t until I went to buy some new jeans and had to go up from a size 14 to a 16 that I had a moment of sheer panic.
That’s an understatement. I cried in the changing rooms. Multiple times.
I thought to myself, how could I let this happen? How could I become a size 16. I’ve always been a 14 – I was never happy being a 14 but it was my size and I had gotten used to it.
Now numbers like 16 and 18 were popping into my head when shopping for clothes. I honestly felt like shit.
I did that thing where I put everything back, stormed out of the shop and sulked all the way home because nothing fit me properly in the size that I wanted.
I’m not going to pussy foot around it, but being a size 16 in my mind has always been the start of “plus sizing”. This stems from what we’re told in the media, what clothing companies tell us from their sizing in both “regular” and “plus” and what I’ve grown up knowing.
Size 16, although may be the tipping point for me, actually might be the goal for someone else. It’s all very much relative to the individual – which is why I took to Twitter to find out what you all thought.
Although only 31 people voted it was very close between both size 16 and 18 being the start or what we would call “plus size”
But should this be something we should worry about?
There are many people out there who have fuller figures than me and look bloody amazing!
Being plus size does not have to mean that you’re unhealthy, or ugly in any way but there is a massive stigma around that number 16.
For me going up a dress size is a wake-up call as it’s a big change for my body – which has come about in a negative way. It’s not a healthy change nor something I’m happy with and therefore I want to fix it.
But for so many women AND men out there, size 16, or Large or Extra Large is just normal. It’s not something to worry about nor to get worked up over.
In fact the number on our clothes shouldn’t even define us as humans but for some reason it does.
No matter what size we are, when we go up a dress size we feel terrible, but when we go down a dress size it’s something to celebrate and shout about.
But should this really be the way we treat ourselves, our bodies and the clothes we wear?
Growing up I always felt ashamed to be shopping in the women’s range when everyone else was still in teens. I felt like I was fat and I hated my body for it – of course making me comfort eat and therefore continue to go up in sizes.
Whether it’s social media, friends and family or just looking at the mannequins in the shops, we feel the need to constantly be shrinking our waists and to be squeezing ourselves into the size below.
It’s less about comfort and more about the numbers.
We tell ourselves that the size below is a bit too small but I’ll buy it anyway and lose some weight and squeeze into it. When really we should be buying the size that fits us so we can be comfortable and happy.
Although I’m a size 16 at the moment this doesn’t mean that I’m going to still be buying size 14 clothes ready for when I go back to that size.
I’m not happy having gone up a dress size but it’s where my body is at this moment in time. Sure if and when I lose the weight and go back down to a 14 I’ll have to buy more clothes but I shouldn’t feel uncomfortable right now in clothes that are too tight and make me feel embarrassed.
There is more to me than the number on my clothes, and the only person who’s going to let that number define me, is me.
It shouldn’t matter what your clothes say as long as you’re happy – and if you’re not happy then do something about it.
At the end of the day I put myself in those jeans and I’m the only one who’s going to get me out of them.
I’d love to know what your thoughts are on plus sizing, size 16 and the stigma around going up a number.