Now when I say petrified I mean knee knocking, body shaking, hyperventilating and crying scared of heights. So when my boyfriend said let’s go to Blackpool Pleasure Beach for the day, you could feel the rush of anxiety go through me.
I’ve been on rollercoasters and rides before but only super small ones so I thought I might be ok. HOW WRONG I WAS!
I won’t bore you too much with the details, plus I know this is on the internet forever so I don’t want to embarrass myself any more than i do on a daily basis. But let’s just say the first ride was not a success. Due to the Wild Mouse being shut for construction and repairs we ended up on the Big Dipper for the first ride of the day.
It didn’t look so bad from the ground but oh my goodness I was not ready for it at all.
I was trying to talk myself into it as we were going up but the higher we went up the more I started to freak out. I turned to my boyfriend and asked him to get me off the ride – like that was an option Emmi!
Then came the moment when I saw the drop we were going to go down. This was the moment that hell broke loose and my boyfriend kinda realised just how petrified of heights I was.
Once the ride was over I had to sit down for a couple of minutes to compose myself. Why I decided to go to Blackpool for th day I don’t know. I didn’t back into a corner though like I thought I would. Instead I plucked up some more courage and went on a few more rides.
Now before you all start think how brave I was let me just stop you there. I didn’t go on the four main big rides – I’m pretty sure that if I went on the big one I would have passed out. But I did try out some of the smaller (kid’s) rides.
Did I scream? Yes!
Would I go back to Blackpool Pleasure Beach again? Maybe in the very distant future.
Despite not going on the more impressive rides I’m really proud of myself for going on the rides I did and it felt good to have faced my fear like that.
I am also so grateful to how my boyfriend reacted. I know he was laughing inside at my pathetic-ness but he was really supportive and even said he was proud of me which helped.
I think it is safe to say though that rollercoasters are not for me.
Have you faced a fear recently? Id love to hear about your experience.
© Emmi Bowles